| i have heard among this clan you are called the forgotten man |
[08 Jul 2009|03:52am] |
push and run by allin khg
forget for a moment how bad it hurts
to remember all those movements
going through the motion of moving on
laughs and cries and crashing emotions
forget for a moment how bad it hurts
to remember how bad it really was
trying to convince yourself not to move on
as you sat home alone one more night
forget about those harsh moments of hurt
your loving kids you get to love
a house a home filled with action motion
some one to increase your emotional income
forget about those harsh moments of hurt
to remember a world you might share
see venus david mona lisa and the last supper
paris moscow hong kong or a moments together alone
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| when i digress youll find me smiling could be living underneath the ground |
[03 Jul 2009|01:31am] |
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finally got this one cleared out and though it did not come out the way i expected (or per the norm wanted it) it is done. perhaps it will be replaced by something less annoying and sucky.
to know is to no
she never explained it
it was something in my eyes
a fortified protected anger
hiding behind a smile that lies
ive got my reasons
ive got my spin
ages and ages of dirty rages
to warm my skin
she is haunted by the horrors
she knew she could never fix
broken and bent and stained
and ideas that never click
ive got my rhymes
ive got my pen
scribbles filling dirty pages
to warn those kin
she is softly amused
trying to get her point across
different but back to the same
no gains no known loss
i dont have the time
i am not without sin
well dressed and dirty sages
to wear me thin
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[18 Jun 2009|07:21am] |
facet bounce
a box of dirty words
from the little course eyed girl
a glass of dirty thoughts
each time she takes a twirl
always said she would be something
someday
always said she was going places
someway
now every turn i take
she is watching over me
watching and wanted
just one more corrupt memory
she is using the medium for good
and the good for worse
and the bad for those nights
she just cant shake the curse
dirty words about a box
from from the course eyed girl
a thought of dirty glasses
watching the melting ice swirl
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| back again new and improved we return to our irregularly programmed schedule |
[19 May 2009|01:28am] |
Dye Trying Video Zine Submissions
pasted and reposted from elsewhere.
on the video zine thing this is your first assignment. if you are reading this i mean you.
i am looking for a few possible bands to feature. good ones by my rules. unsigned is better but good is the main thing. so comment or mail me a link to further info and i will take a listen. if they actually seem to be trying then i will keep them on the list.
i am not looking for any particular style but there are certain things that will get a band off the list of possibles immediately. listing the greatful dead or phish as an influence. being signed to a top level major. a lack of passion in the music. too large a collection of covers in the collection. sucking. trying harder to be cool that to rock.
this doesnt mean plug your best friends band that deep down you know has no real potential. i want to get to the good stuff. i have passed up interviews before because i thought the band sucked and the current state of all things makes it even more feasible to do this.
so lets see what youve got.
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ok so there are some questions on what i am looking for in relations to the video zine thing. so i will try to pin it down. put simply i want interesting. fun. odd.
pretty. cool. whatever. just remember this is not a family show and will obviously not be rated.
some examples are
emergency vehicles in action or transits
rants and tirades
things that are just plain weird/funny
shots in/out the window of plains and trains
stop motion animation
interesting stories stories
reviews of real items
band interviews
plastic bags
stuff blowing up
breaking news stories of fake events
things will get pulled from everywhere.
a couple of examples i will be doing are showing clips from some of my 8mm films refilmed with the camera. and a puppet show of sorts that may very well not get done. mike has been assigned the responsibility of joke telling and filtering. we are going to bring out the worst.
if you can get the same thing from multiple angles that is great. i can splice it together.
for band interviews the first question is what is the band who is in it what is the website and what have you got to say for yourself. any questions beyond that are up to you. the will be less editing if the is music to go after the interview bit (live shot or rule shot video (with a digital still camera or cameraphone or web cam).
still camera/cameraphone/web cam are the only real hard and fast rules. i could shoot with a nice camera and do the conversion but it would never get done and i want anyone to be able to submit to me. by setting this limit to everyone it puts everyone on the same playing field. but try to hold it steady if i get seasick watching it i might very well skip using it.
if you are submitting a video more for the audio that is one it let me know and and i will try to put it with something fitting.
on the reviews i say real items because i dont want reviews of websites, mp3s and such. it you want to do a review of an album it doesnt have to a new one but it does have to be by a band or artist that is still releasing new material. same goes for paper zines. really good format for stock soda and restaurant reviews.
i had said that it would be annual but i am changing that to bi-annual with july 31 and nov 30 as the target release dates. deadline submission will be one month prior to that. uploads will begin a month after release. i would like for the content to be exclusive until after release at the least but...
even though i am intending for this to be released real world only i will set up a youtube channel for the left overs and such. this will be used as a promotional tool and for showing bits that got cut. for instance if you send something that is 10 minutes long but i only use two i may upload it to there if it justifies it. cut scenes and gag reel type of thing.
i will not encourage law breaking to get or make videos. if i let something through that shows you breaking the law it was your idea and as such you and only you are responsible for the consequences.
when considering sending remember there will be two different aspects. there will be the feature segments and then the inbetweens. the inbetweens may very well end up feeling like blipverts by the time i get done so nothing is too short.
when filming keep speed in mind. somewhere between icarly and fred is what i am aiming for. if a uhhhhh bit uhhhhh drags on it may uhhhhhh get cut. practice runs and reshoots are completely acceptable. or i may just edit out all the dead space which will just look silly. but by that same token some points are suppose to drag out.
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Ultimately these need to be signed and kept on file by each person appearing but as production will happen in Oklahoma, and OK law accepts verbal contracts, these can be read aloud by identifiable people appearing in video. They must state legal name and date. So print it out and keep it with you. This will apply most specifically in interview situations. Those appearing must be over 18 or a printed copy signed by parent or guardian will mandatory. I really need to find a quick and dirty version that still covers all of the points.
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I, the undersigned, hereby give permission to KHG and/or Dye Trying to videotape my voice, name, physical likeness, and appearance in connection with a production entitled and described as Dye Trying.
I hereby assign and license to the KHG and/or Dye Trying any and all copyright or other literary rights that I may have in and to said production. I will receive no remuneration for my participation in this production.
I hereby agree that KHG and/or Dye Trying and its assigns, agents, employees, licensors, and successors may, by any media whatsoever, produce, distribute, exhibit, broadcast, and promote scenes of me in connection with said production, and may sell or license the same for distribution, exhibition, or broadcast to any other person or entity and that KHG and/or Dye Trying may make reference to and use my name, voice, and likeness. I further agree that the KHG and/or Dye Trying may edit scenes and my appearance in the production, and may use or authorize others to use such scenes in other formats. I waive all personal or proprietary rights with respect to the production.
Print Name: ___________________________
Signature: ___________________________
Date: ________________________
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| i might just split a seam if i dont die laughing first |
[12 May 2009|07:38am] |
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ive made this joke around the house but i really do see it as a real concept. since survivor jumped the shark a long time ago why not make the show matter before it gets canceled. imagine if you will survivor nyc. the rules would have to be altered for the environment but in the end it would be a viable excuse to bring attention to the homeless situation. lets see how long some of them can stand living in an alley with the constant threat of attack and constant noise. or for that matter why not use real homeless people as the participants thus giving some of them a chance to get out of the hole they are in. doesnt have to be nyc. any major city will do and it will be a whole lot better then that stupid ass mtv show ever was.
in other new...i am dying at how stupid octamom and her lawyers are. she gonna get rich. shes going to get fame. shes going to get fined up the ass for breaking californias very strict child labor laws concerning filming. you think she might have considered that part ahead of time. how much padding can you put around 20 minutes of filming a day? like she hadnt already proved she was a complete psycho idiot already.
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| why dont you call it a loss not such a big loss chalk it up to better luck |
[12 May 2009|12:12am] |
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pack of wraps |
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replacements - here comes a regular |
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so i have been shipping out these ebay things and one thing is really funny. spending so much time at the post office makes me miss doing zine ca-rap. so i suppose it is time to get the ducks in a row and start ducking logic and make it happen. but i think i am going to have to go public with it more so than i have. probably on that evil evil site. no the other one - myspace.
scap for parts
set the meters and taped over the masters
no more time to leave it to chance
times running short and the machinces clatter
no more time for tirades and rants
and it all goes away
and it all comes back
and it all disappears
into the stack
face down in the dirt
looking for diamonds in the rough
knee deep in mud sweat and fears
take another break another drink another puff
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[07 May 2009|11:58pm] |
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facebook is interesting but its killing my mind and time
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| do me a favour and play along as the rusty gears turn |
[07 May 2009|02:37am] |
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about |
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Cure - If Only Tonight We Could Sleep |
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spirited filings
haunted by voices
that still ring on
carrying stories
of days long gone
haunted by vices
that filled my past
harboring pains
that will be the last
haunted by ghosts
that walk the floor
carrying on such
still wanting more
hunted by ghosts
that are not there
right now
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| rolling down the highway until the break of dawn |
[02 Mar 2009|01:21am] |
todays book acquisitions totaling $4.50. i love me some reference books
paperbacks
Travels In Alaska by John Muir first printing 1979 edition
Stephens: A Story of Educational Innovation by John C. Crighton first edition 1970
Old Possums Book of Practical Cats by T.S. Elliot [Drawing By Edward Gorey] 1982
Air Force Manual 64-5 Search And Rescue Survival by Department Of The Air Force 1962 with 1967 addendum
Audubon Society Field Guide to North American Wildflowers - Western Region by Richard Spellenberg et al Eleventh printing 1992
hardbacks
Better Homes And Gardens Handyman's Book (Ring Bound) first edition 1951 with numerous additions
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[25 Jan 2009|07:48am] |
go read this right now. ill wait....man you read slow...forget what you were doing?...i think this is an idea thats time has finally come. with so much of communication being text based and such and so many miscomunications because of not knowing how to read the sentence i think we really do need a snark mark. get some of the cell providers to promote it in a few commercials. sell a few t-shirts. make keyboards that have it in as a standard. etc etc.
and while we are at it can we dithch the qwerty keyboard. please.
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| if I tell you what you want to hear will it help you to sleep wellat night |
[16 Jan 2009|03:44am] |
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Kirsty MacColl - You Just Haven't Earned It Yet Baby |
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hollowed sold
never let em see you sweat
never let em see you regrets
never let em see all the things
you can never seem to forget
all the places youve been
that you never wanted to know
all the open wounds
letting the agony flow
all the days getting ready
just to make the next show
never let em see your best
never let em put you to the test
never let em know about
the ideas that never let you rest
more scars on top of more scars
the damage has been done
yet you never want to tell
who lost and who was the one
let them think they know
while they make thier fun
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| its been decades since my pit days but i havent shaken it i sit there like an idiot |
[16 Jan 2009|01:31am] |
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Winamp *** 272. - - Ðàçâåäêà |
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reason #666 that itunes sux0rs:
first let me say that i dont use it that often so this was all new to me. i decided i would add my audio files to my library just for ease of use. i specifically did not choose to consolidate library. but it did any way. renaming files from folder\artist - album - track - title to folder\artist\album\track title. not even track - title. then i had some duplicated into special folders for special resons and it fucking moved those. to top it off almost every folder has a folder in it that is called unknown album. there are all kinds of problems with software doing this. and i wouldnt mind so much if it were not done to 22000 files. yes 22000. of those was a nice pretty stack of cds i had just encoded and i was all happy and shit because some of them got tags that i never even expected to. then crapple had to ruin my good mood. ok so it was nice enough to tell me it was going to convert wma files for me which i told to not do. you know how much work this is going to take to recover from even with the help of software?
fuckers.
and i just found out that i have to order a sound card because my onboard audio is not capable of certain simple and basic features that i need for assembling certian things. things that will become very important once i take that final step back into zineville. and it is coming now that i have figured out how its going to be done. i have to figure a few things out first and make sure it is all going to go together the way i want it. then i have to find people to help. but first i need my soundcard to get here. just dont think the whole zine thing is going to happen that soon or in a standard manner. and i have to come up with a name.
more than likely i will use the short form of dye trying (long form: die laughing or die trying...and believe me you are very trying). but that idea is years old and reserved for a special thing so it might only be used for a part within. then i can use some thing cool like kelvin helical genlock. ok maybe not that cool but lets pretend anyway. something stupid and goofy that pokes at the khg thing. then i become rich and famous and make a million pounds. pounds are worth more. never mind the fact that there is no money in zineville. i am thinking a summer release of the first issue. but it requires a whole lot happing first. like me getting off my ass. some of you people helping me. other people helping. getting the right tools and packaging and figuring out if its going to be annual or what. i am not going to let it ru(i)n my life again. can we do it? uh i think so.
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| you may think im bitching now but you'll find out who i really am some day |
[08 Jan 2009|01:28am] |
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You Are Profoundly Disturbing
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You're weird, freaky, and maybe even a little psycho.
You aren't just attracted to darkness - you thrive in it.
Your interests are downright creepy, and you may even lack normal human empathy.
While there's no harm in enjoying the macabre, remember to keep your vilest thoughts to yourself!
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You Are 84% Misanthropic
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You are misanthropic to the point of being scary. In your view, people are a disease.
You may want to lighten up a little - before you become a super villain!
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| that sounds is more important than your entire life |
[03 Jan 2009|05:16am] |
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cake - never there |
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i am still working on this whole hdd love thang but it finally got all[?] 22000 of my mp3s in one place. and i still have 82 gigs free on that partition. out of 200. for now. with another drive to pull. so far that means that most of the candyass execution stuff has reappered. some of you may have heard this a long long time ago but lets go again. yeah the intro goes on way too long but it has to be. just sit through it until it switches. this is what happens when i get the time and the tools and a bad idea. this one is an off pattern mash up using very known sounds. mc 900 foot jesus vs beavis and butthead vs negativland vs wham. cage match.
Candyass Execution - If Beavis Only Had The Playboy Channel.mp3
someday i will get the pedestrian landfill stuff up. someday i suppose.
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| SANTA INVITED TO EXPLORE NASA'S MOON AND MARS PROGRESS |
[23 Dec 2008|12:33pm] |
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Dec. 23, 2008
Allard Beutel
Kennedy Space Center, Fla.
321-867-2468
allard.beutel@nasa.gov
MEDIA ADVISORY: 32-08
SANTA INVITED TO EXPLORE NASA'S MOON AND MARS PROGRESS
CAPE CANAVERAL, Fla. - When Santa Claus makes his routine pit stop at
NASA Kennedy Space Center's Shuttle Landing Facility on Christmas
Eve, he may do a bit more than chow down on milk and cookies. In the
next few decades, humans could be living, working and playing on the
moon, including millions of good little boys and girls counting on
Santa to put presents under their trees, no matter where those trees
are. So this year, Kennedy is inviting Santa to check out the
progress being made with the agency's Constellation Program.
After Santa and his reindeer-propelled sleigh glide to a stop on the
15,000-foot-long shuttle runway, he can head over to Launch Pad 39B
where modifications are being made for the Ares I-X rocket test
flight targeted to launch in July 2009. Workers are using the
Manitowoc 21000 model crane, which extends 640 feet off the ground,
to lift the lightning protection system's three 600-foot-tall steel
and fiberglass towers. Word has it Santa's elves began constructing a
similar launch pad and lightning protection system at the North Pole
last year in preparation for Santa's sojourns to the stars.
Santa also has the option to check out the new Ares I-X firing room,
which is fairly empty in comparison to space shuttle firing rooms. It
takes more than 200 controllers to launch a space shuttle, whereas
Ares calls for about 100. The firing room also has the capability to
go paperless. Shuttle controllers can have up to 6,000 procedure
documents at their consoles, but the new system will provide all
necessary documents online.
Next, Santa can swing by the Vehicle Assembly Building, or VAB, to
look at the first pieces of Ares I-X hardware. The test flight
rocket's upper-stage simulator, consisting of 11 cylinders that look
like enormous tuna cans, will help engineers prepare NASA's next
generation human spacecraft launch system for space travel. Rumor has
it elves are looking to have a similar system like the Ares I and
will call Santa's fleet, "Jingle Bell Rockets."
Santa's last stop would be Kennedy's Parachute Refurbishment Facility
where workers are manufacturing and packing Ares parachutes. The
drogue parachute that will gently slow the descent of the spent Ares
I-X first-stage motor has faired well during testing at the U.S.
Army's Yuma Proving Ground in Arizona.
Santa reportedly requested a mock-up moonsuit from NASA's Johnson
Space Center in Houston. The new red suit is expected to support a
week's worth of moonwalks. Santa may only need to wear it one night a
year, unless of course he relocates his workshop to the north pole of
the moon, Mars or beyond.
For more information about NASA's return to the moon, Mars and beyond,
visit:
http://www.nasa.gov/topics/moonmars
For more information on NASA's Constellation Program, visit:
http://www.nasa.gov/constellation
For more information on NASA's Kennedy Space Center, visit:
http://www.nasa.gov/kennedy
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| why did you not talk to me why didnt you help me prepare for the nightmare |
[23 Dec 2008|12:05pm] |
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waitresses - christmas wrapping |
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my mother and i tore apart my care and replaced the valve cover gasket. now my car doesnt go. its fixable but after sitting beside the highway in 20* weather i just really want to deal with it for a while. or anything else for that matter. it was bad enough that i had to order the gasket off ebay to get a descent price and get it in time. when i called around about it i was told 5-10 business days at $40-$60 plus freight. so i got one off ebay for $21. not the prefered method for getting car parts but apparently when you drive a daewoo (or have one parked in your driveway) you dont really have a whole lot of options. i still need to do the plugs and wires since when i pulled the wires (all of them. at. the. same. time. has to be done to do this job.) the boots on them were nice little depth guages for the oils pooled there. normally i would just go out and get them but lets just pretend for a minute that i can do that with any part for my car. @!@!@!@XXX###XXX!@!@!@!@. at least i got the vacuum leak on the pandys car fixed before doing this. and by leak i mean the hose was pretty much completely shot to shit. so now i have a paper weight of sorts. estimates on repair are $30 to $3000. a couple of oil changes might fix it. or it might mean a complete engine rebuild.
since i was already pissed off and frustrated to the nth degree i decided that to get my mind off of it i would work on cloning my primary hard drive. cloning a partitioned 200g hard drive to a 500g sata drive connected via usb cable. oh and lets not forget that that not all of the partitions are of the same file system. of course i was trying to do the impossible and do it while actually using the drive. just like taking a picture of a moving object. that didnt work. then i had to try several different pieces of software to find one that would do the job. hours and hours of entertainment. i also had a very real fear of running out of drive letters while doing this. and doing this took me all the way to v:. i still havent gotten the nerve to swap the drives out and do the full test. at which time i also have to put in my new burner. this whole project has been waiting for attention since june so i think it can wait a few days to be completed.
now would probably be a good time for breaking rocks for my rock garden. hella good stress reliever and layer one is pretty close to conpletion. if i can get this phase done before winter really sets it will be all nice and ready for the top pretty layer when spring rolls around. its actually looking like it will be a pretty nice thing. never mind the fact that i am doing my damnedest to not use cement or sandstone for any of it. there is sandstone there now but it will be removed when the real rocks get moved it. other than the birdbath the only cement should be the chunch from love canal. this is not a flowering rock garden. its just a bunch of rocks. with the centerpiece will be a meteorite...that i have yet to acquire.
remember this: winter solstice is the reason for the season. so while you are killing animals and family members in order practice these oddball holiday traditions keep in mind that no matter how bad it seems it really could be much worse. and it will be. merry god damned xmess. now lets go watch godzilla vs mithra. it will be fun
now i guess i will head off to the mall to start my holiday shopping. im crazy not stupid. i havent been to a mall since october or so. dont plan to adjust that now.
evergreens sparkling snow get this winter over with
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| as is 1 front cover - color |
[23 Dec 2008|12:04am] |
As Is #1 front cover scanned from originals. for true feel print out in black and white. circa 1986. 8.5 x 5.5 and no margins or gutters to speak of. and photocopiers are not known for doing full bleeds.
omf"b" these sux0rs so bad. at least things did get a little better (thanks to all) but considering the ages knowledge and tools available at the time...nope it still sucks goat ass.
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[15 Dec 2008|02:17pm] |
rippers fine post
it was never wrong
but it was never all right
chances taken
with offers refused
hand in hand
in a quite pace
screams for attention
come as the faintest sound
we all know their story
and all too well
times were wrong
and time ended the fight
fears were taken
by emotions bemused
stand the stand
to know thaty face
never ask or answer
of the others around
it will be worth a fortune
when it time to sell
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pair of eyes lost
they will only see
the places in the beginning
are the same ones
the were there for the ending
the same places
the same buildings
the same towns
the same people
the same trains
the same sounds
they will never see
all the cut and crossed wires
are the same ones
that helped put out the fire
a different year
a different state
a different kind of pain
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[12 Dec 2008|07:50pm] |
"But now, the hottest thing to say is, 'I can work a pole!' Who gives a fuck?" - Christina Ricci
now that is some true wisdon to live by.
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[12 Dec 2008|12:17am] |
Press Release: Bettie Page Obituary
Los Angeles, December 11, 2008 – Bettie Page, sweet-smiling legendary 1950s pin-up queen with the killer curves and coal-black bangs, died today of pneumonia at a Los Angeles area hospital. She was 85 years old. She suffered a heart attack one week ago and never regained consciousness. Her popularity as an underground, guilty pleasures phenomenon has continued to soar despite the fact that the reclusive Page disappeared almost a half century ago, leading many to believe that one of the most photographed individuals of the 20th century was already dead.
As the model who many have argued raised cheesecake to an art, Page combined exuberant, wide-eyed innocence with confident, sometimes aggressive sexuality. VANITY FAIR praised the playfully seductive Page as “our Uber-pin-up.” The NEW YORK TIMES has declared that today “her star shines more brightly than it did in her brief heyday from 1950 to 1957.” PLAYBOY immortalized Page as one of its inaugural centerfolds and recently named her “the model of the century, yet she remains one of its best kept secrets.” In a recent TVGuide.com poll, Bettie Page was voted the “ultimate sex goddess,” outscoring others such as Marilyn Monroe.
Born on April 22, 1923 in Nashville, Tennessee, Bettie (spelled “Betty” on her birth certificate) Mae Page was the second child of six born to Walter Roy Page and Edna Mae Pirtle. The family was poor, moved often, and as a child, Page frequently found it necessary to take charge of her siblings. On several occasions they were dispatched to an orphanage. Life was hard. They were raised in the Church. Page owed her extraordinary looks and high intelligence to her parents, but it was a mixed blessing. Her mother did not want her. Her father molested her.
Page and her two sisters grew up movie fans who enjoyed acting out memorable scenes from whatever “picture show” they had just been to see. “I’ve been a movie hound my whole life,” Page said. “That’s how I started learning to pose, when my little sisters asked me to mimic photos of movie stars we’d seen in the magazines and newspapers.” They would experiment with different hairdos and makeup styles. At an early age Page learned to sew at the local community center; it was a skill with a practical application years later when she designed and made her own costumes, lingerie and bikinis to wear while modeling. She was the salutatorian of her high school graduating class. She was also program director of the dramatics club, secretary-treasurer of the student council, co-editor of the school’s newspaper and yearbook, and voted “Most Likely to Succeed” by her classmates.
Her own mother’s jealousy cost Page a scholarship to Vanderbilt University. Instead she earned a 1944 Bachelor of Arts degree in education from Peabody College in Tennessee. It was an uncommon achievement for a woman at that time. She tried teaching school, but her heart-breaking good looks made it impossible for the kids in class to focus on anything else but their pretty teacher. “I couldn’t control my students,” she would say with an irresistible wink, “especially the boys!” Two decades later Page returned to Peabody to work on her master’s degree.
There wasn’t anyone anywhere quite like Bettie Page. She thought for herself. She chartered her own course. She was independent. Page was completely self made, bore no prejudice of any kind, and recognized no barrier to personal fulfillment. Always a free spirit, she moved from Tennessee to San Francisco, took her first of several secretarial jobs, but dreamed of movie stardom (her favorites were Bette Davis and Gregory Peck). Plus she hoped for a chance at modeling. In her first work before still cameras, Bettie Page was more than fully clothed; she wore fur coats.
Everywhere she went, whatever she did, people were distracted and dumbstruck by her looks -- the beguiling smile, the raven hair, the flawless figure. Finally in 1945 one of these people arranged for the acting hopeful to visit Hollywood, where, unfortunately, 20th Century-Fox mishandled her screen test. “They did my hair and makeup so that I looked like a caricature of Joan Crawford,” Page recalled in the Southern drawl she never lost, and which Hollywood frowned on. “It was awful. They ran the test for me; I hardly even recognized myself.” She fled the lot when a producer promised a lucrative movie career in exchange for sexual favors. “I didn’t like his looks,” Page said. “I wouldn’t have gone to bed with him anyway. He was a creeeeeeep. He drove off in his big car and scolded me, ‘You’ll be sorry.’ I wasn’t.”
Nor was she interested in the attentions of flamboyant filmmaker, aviator and inventor Howard Hughes, who pursued Page as well. Hughes phoned and had his staff phone her many times, summoning Page regularly on the pretext of wanting to photograph the delicious looking model. She declined every entreaty. “I never returned any of his calls,” said the celebrated pin-up, who surprisingly few could pin down. “I guess people will say I made a mistake. But sex is part of love, and you shouldn’t go around doing it unless you are in love. I certainly didn’t.”
More than once in recent years she did concede that failing to answer a telegram from studio boss Jack Warner about doing a second screen-test at Warner Bros. was the one mistake she most regretted in her life. But her first husband, Billy Neal, was returning home from war in the South Pacific, and Page was focused on trying to save a collapsing marriage.
Living in New York during 1947 after divorcing Neal, one day at the beach Page chanced to meet a police officer named Jerry Tibbs. He had a side interest in photography. It was Tibbs who recommended she should adopt the trademark black bangs. He also aided in compiling her first pin-up portfolio. Of course Page was from the South; Tibbs happened to be black. Page happened to be color blind.
With her tantalizing face and figure, she innocently and perhaps inevitably drifted into cheesecake modeling as a lark, where Page was prolific. Almost immediately she was the ubiquitous face and figure adorning such publications as WINK, EYEFUL, SIR!, HE, SHE, JEST, BARE, STARE, GAZE, VUE, TITTER, SUNBATHING, BEAUTY PARADE, CHICKS AND CHUCKLES and scores more. Her saucy pictures ripped from these magazines decorated offices, lockers, garages and all manner of rooms around the world as if they constituted a new Bettie Page brand of wallpaper. Her image was everywhere, and attracted international attention and notoriety.
In posing for such photos (some by acclaimed fashion photographer Bunny Yeager), many who were witnesses recall that Page seemed to command these sessions the way a movie director would. Without intending to (and without realizing it either), because of her ingenuity and dominant personality, Page was effectively the creative force controlling much of her own work.
“I was generally happy posing, and that seemed to shine through in the pictures,” Page explained. “Nobody knew this, but I used to imagine the camera was my boyfriend, and I was making love to him. I had fun teasing the guy with the camera until he was in sync with whatever mood I was in.”
At a time when Marilyn Monroe was studying at the Actors Studio in Manhattan, Page was doing the same at the renowned Herbert Berghof Studios only blocks away. “I wasn’t trying to be an actress at that time, but I wanted to see if I could really act or not.”
The answer was pretty much, no. Actor Robert Culp taught some of Page’s classes, and did a dramatic one-act play with her. The title was DARK LADY OF THE SONNETS. “She was in way over her head,” Culp remembered. “She was nice, but she was not an actress, and had she continued, her thick Southern accent would have been a problem for her.”
Berghof and his wife, Uta Hagen (both famous exponents of the Stanislavsky method of acting) were impressed by one scene, however, and asked Page what she was drawing upon from her own experience to create the sense of remorse and tragic reality which she was projecting so effectively on stage. Page told them, “I was thinking of all the wicked things I had done, and how God was going to punish me for all my sins.”
On television, the biggest thing Page did was a performance in a skit with the star of THE JACKIE GLEASON SHOW. She disliked him. “Oh, Jackie Gleason was a tyrant,” Page declared. “That man was inconsiderate of everyone around him, including Art Carney, Joyce Meadows, the director, I do mean everyone. I never saw such screaming and yelling. Some people think I’m crazy! You should have seen this cad in action…although he was sweet to me!”
The pin-up extraordinaire never exploited her incredible figure to work as a dancer or stripper in clubs, but she did appear in three burlesque films that suggested as much: STRIP-O-RAMA (1953), VARIETEASE (1954), and TEASERAMA (1955). “I was terrible,” Page laughed in recalling these low budget grind-house efforts. She also performed for the camera in countless 8 and 16mm so-called “film loops” exhibited in peep shows and sold through the mail. Running only minutes long, many of these were staged and issued by the brother-and-sister team of Irving and Paula Klaw of Movie Star News in New York.
It was for the Klaws that Page gained infamy posing in bondage. “It was all pretend,” Page explained. “According to my arrangement with the Klaws, you had to do an hour of bondage poses in order to get paid for the other modeling work.” Seeing such photos in recent years (now they seem almost tame), she would laugh and comment, “Oh, I look like a meanie here….But honestly, who could take any of this seriously? I never understood how anyone believed those poses were sexy. To be tied up? I don’t get it.”
Enough did, however, so that Bettie Page quickly became the most photographed woman in the world. There could be no doubt, she was a sensation. THE PAGE CRAZE WAS ON.
“You couldn’t walk by a newsstand without seeing a picture of this gal on one magazine or another,” said Hillard Elkins, who for a time represented the aspiring actress on behalf of the William Morris Agency. Without imagining the consequences on any conscious level, Page eventually found that her provocative images violated all manner of sexual taboos during that more Puritanical time, finally invoking a United States Senate Committee investigation into pornography. She was subpoenaed to appear in a Capitol Hill courtroom presided over by Senator (and presidential hopeful) Estes Kefauver, yet was never called upon to actually testify.
Then by 1958 this young and beautiful pin-ultimate pin-up queen was gone – suddenly vanished from view in the prime of her life. Just like Greta Garbo, like James Dean, like Jean Harlow. Gone. Except that the departure of Bettie Page was a mystery. Where and why did she go? Had she died? Was she hiding? Was she incapacitated? No one knew. Page’s disappearance only served to power her notoriety. Fantastic rumors abounded. For decades, fans searched. Even the hard-hitting investigative television program 60 MINUTES tried doing a story.
It took until the mid-1990s before the truth was finally revealed. While battling some fierce inner demons, Page had secretly fled New York for Florida. In 1958 she underwent a religious epiphany. She totally retreated from the public eye, tried marriage again, and gave her life to Jesus Christ as a born-again Christian, working for Billy Graham’s ministry, among others. Incredibly, as yet another riddle in her complicated stranger-than-fiction life, during this time Page remained completely oblivious of her own profound impact upon America’s fast-changing sexuality and pop culture, not to mention the thriving cottage industry that had arisen around her celebrated image – the issuance of commercial products including Bettie Page action figures, calendars, comic books, lighters, incense, towels, DVDs, T-shirts, key chains, playing cards, lunch boxes, websites, and all manner of memorabilia. IT WAS BETTIEMANIA.
The failure of Page’s third marriage in 1978 precipitated some mental instability, violent mood swings, and serious trouble with the law. The sordid details of these travails are no secret and have now been disclosed in books and the tabloid press. At last in 1992 she left San Bernardino’s Patton State Hospital to emerge from this dark period during which she had been diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic.
Page was living quietly in seclusion in Los Angeles when she discovered her enormous niche market popularity. Playboy’s Hugh Hefner introduced Page to a Midwest lawyer who is credited with establishing the merchandising and licensing business opportunities for many of the famous icons of the 20th Century. Roesler’s company, CMG Worldwide, was representing several hundred famous personalities, most of whom were deceased, such as Marilyn Monroe, James Dean, Babe Ruth, Malcolm X and others. Roesler quickly turned the reclusive beauty into a “brand” recognized around the world. Clothing lines that featured the “Bettie Page” brand sprung up, as did a store called “Bettie Page” on the Las Vegas Strip. Page became increasingly popular not only here in the United States, but throughout the world. Her website www.BettiePage.com became one of the most heavily trafficked sites on the internet, getting almost ¾ million hits each day.
“She was a remarkable woman,” Roesler reflected, “truly someone that changed the social norms, not only here in this country, but also around the world. While Jackie Robinson was changing the racial attitudes, Bettie Page was changing our attitudes on sex. She became a James Dean type of ‘rebel’ figure as she allowed people to be less inhibited and look at sex in a different way. “
Roesler said her influence will be on the same level as a Marilyn Monroe. “Her undeniable influence will forever remain in fashion, films and merchandising,” Roesler declared. “She was reclusive and private, so without intending to be, without quite understanding how, her modeling work made her a pivotal figure in the sexual revolution that began in the 1950s. I was always flattered by Bettie’s continued trust, and happy to play a role in helping her overcome some financial and personal problems in her later years. To her adoring she will always be remembered as the ‘Queen of Pin-up.’ “
Roesler was at Page’s bedside when she peacefully died on Thursday, failing to regain consciousness following her heart attack eight days earlier.
Wearing a Santa hat and nothing else as Miss January of 1955, Bettie Page, like Marilyn Monroe, had been one of PLAYBOY magazine’s initial Playmate centerfolds during its first year of publication. Monroe fit the magazine’s business model, offering readers the (apparently) wholesome “girl next door.” Despite her sunny smile, Page became instead a puzzling “bad girl next door” cult figure, now representing a sort of collective guilty pleasure for admirers, who are not just men.
Images of Bettie Page continue to inspire imitation by curious young girls who somehow – probably through the internet – discover this “Dark Angel” whose personality reflected the lethal combination of sweet apple pie, as well as dangerous forbidden fruit. Judging by the hundreds of millions of hits registered at her authorized website, the magnetic appeal of Bettie Page to young men, and women, appears to be timeless.
“Young women write me untold numbers of letters,” Page explained in 2005. “They look up to me. They thank me for helping them see how they can be themselves, or how they can reinvent themselves, assert themselves, lose their inhibitions, and come out of their shells. Of course just posing for pictures I never intended to do any part of that, but I am gratified to see that what I did so long ago has meant something to so many.”
Apparently what resonates with young women is how Page owned her own sexuality. Whether projecting innocence, or being completely wild and uninhibited, it seemed to be her choice, and either choice, wholesome or edgy, was fine with her, and she embraced them both. She was confident her audience did as well.
Hugh Hefner says the appearance of Bettie Page in PLAYBOY was a milestone, and that “she became, in time, an American icon, her winning smile and effervescent personality apparent in every pose. A kinky connection was added by Irving Klaw’s spanking, fetish and bondage photos, which became part of the Bettie Page mystique; they were playful parodies that are now perceived as the early inspiration for Madonna’s excursions into the realm of sexual perversion.”
The fashion designers, Madonna, and others can copy the fetish behavior, the bangs and the bullets bras, but only the spontaneous and unpredictable Bettie Page herself was able to project the unique and volatile combination of the playful nice girl -- along with the perilous one. Wholesome innocence one moment, dangerous dominance the next. That quality defined the Bettie Page persona, as well the flesh and blood person few people were fortunate enough to know. Quietly, steadily, old black and white photos of Bettie Page have continued to stimulate tributes in the form of books, websites, fan clubs, documentary films, and countless licensed products.
Two examples of how Bettie Page has been re-introduced to new generations of eager young fans: First, Dave Stevens created a comic book hero called “The Rocketeer,” with a love interest clearly inspired by Bettie Page; Disney adapted it as a big budget, same-named motion picture vehicle for Oscar-winning actress Jennifer Connelly. Stevens, recently deceased, became one of Page’s most devoted friends, one of the few she could trust. It was Stevens who escorted Bettie Page to the Playboy Mansion for a private 35mm screening of THE ROCKETEER in 1994. She had never seen the film before. She loved it.
Second example: the noted erotic pin-up artist Olivia, who has been painting Bettie Page for a quarter century (in art books, for PLAYBOY, on limited edition posters, etc.), was the first to successfully integrate her fetish imagery for a high fashion licensee, Fiorucci Jeans. Olivia offered this assessment of the Bettie Page phenomenon on the occasion of her passing: “From Mona Lisa to Marilyn Monroe, pinup icons fascinate, because no one can explain the ethereal nature of their beauty. It comes down to creating magic. Bettie was the action hero of pin-up. Although the fantasy world of fetish/bondage existed in some form since the beginning of time, Bettie reigns as the iconic figurehead, for no star existed in this realm before her. Marilyn had her predecessors, Bettie did not. It was a privilege to know and love her.”
Celebrities and supermodels who have attempted to leverage the “magic” and pose as the naughty and nice Bettie Page include Madonna, Shalom Harlow, Uma Thurman, Janice Dickinson, Dasha Astafieva, Jenna Jameson, Dita von Teese, Farrah Fawcett, Eva Herzigova, Demi Moore, Laetitia Costa, Christy Turlington, even Renee Zellweger, to name a few.
Pop culture critic and author Mikal Gilmore has characterized the appeal of Bettie Page in this way: “No matter how much you stare or dream or pray, you could never get enough of what it is that her face and body seem to promise.”
Despite having worked with but a single competent photographer, despite having thousands of her photographs destroyed on purpose following the congressional hearings, and despite so many extant photos surviving only as inferior copies of the originals, the transcendent beauty and playful yet dangerous personality of Bettie Page trumps all else and continues to inspire documentary films, designers’ fashions, artists’ fetishes, and fans’ fantasies.
For those who understood who Bettie Page was, no explanation for any of this is necessary. For those who did not know, probably no explanation was, or is, possible.
Late in life she shunned the public, and guarded her privacy. But that was always true of the way Page lived, even during her modeling days.
Near the end, she hoped people would remember her as she looked when she was young, and for being someone who, in her words, “changed people’s perspectives concerning nudity in its natural form. Being nude was something I enjoyed, it felt so natural. There is nothing disgraceful concerning nudity unless one is being promiscuous about it. Don’t forget the Bible says when God created Adam and Eve, they were stark naked. Who can argue with that?”
Bettie Page was married and divorced three times, bore no children, and of her five brothers and sisters, is survived by Jack Page of Nashville, Tennessee, and Joyce Page of Atlanta, Georgia.
When Bettie Page left the modeling scene, she sought privacy, read widely, enjoyed classic movies, mastered fields which interested her (including homeopathic medicine and nutrition), and lived out her life as a devoted Christian. Many times she told friends, “My long term goal is to live a healthy hundred years.”
She made occasional visits to the Playboy Mansion to watch old movies and attend private parties with her friend Hugh Hefner and her agent, Roesler. She was humbled at all the attention she got five years ago, when she attended Playboy’s 50th Anniversary party at the Playboy Mansion with Anna Nicole Smith. Both Smith and Page made a grand entrance and enjoyed the special attention they received. That evening they were photographed together in what was said to be the only time in the past 50 years that Page allowed her photograph to be taken.
Her story is an impossible incursion of near misses, bad luck, contradictions and lost opportunities. Page was strong-willed, and fiercely independent. She battled long and hard against both physical and mental illnesses. From the 1950s and beyond, when strangers would recognize her, she would deny her identity. “Bettie Page?” she would respond, “Who is that?” And yet to friends, she always told the truth, and would candidly (and sometimes endlessly!) discuss any aspect of her long life, including any conceivable question one might pose with respect to sexual activity. And under the spell of those sparkling blue-gray Bettie Page eyes (at any age), sometimes one was too distracted to even process what she was saying.
Funeral services will be Tuesday with a private service and burial at Westwood Cemetery a few feet away from her blonde sex icon counterpart, Marilyn Monroe.
For more on the life and legacy of Bettie Page, visit www.BettiePage.com.
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i know i have probably said this same crap a hundred times over but some of its new and some of it is reworded just enough to seem new. what i mean is deal with it.
several times i have made music recommendations to people that they may or may not have any luck finding. i also worry that what they find may not be the song or album that i think they will truly like. for instance if i recommended pretty hate machine to someone and they went to get something but by nin and instead picked up fixed it would not be the same thing at all. all albums and songs are not created equal.
in many cases i have the belief that most artists can exist because they created certain song(s) or album. even if everything outside of that is pure crap. this one thing they did forgives all of the crap. for instance i am not a pussycat dolls* fan 'dont cha makes them forgivable. sure its sounds like a stupid song on the surface. true it does have a very simple bubble gum feel that i always enjoy. but. but. if you sit down and and listen to it or better yet read the lyrics it makes for an out of the norm piece. no. i am not high. yes it takes a hell of a lot to get around the gloss and hype on this one but that makes it worth it. i am almost certain that they didnt write it but they made it know so again it is worth it. i am not saying that it is the best song ever written but it still makes it worth their existence. if they crash and burn from here i doubt it matters.
see things like that make a lot of people ignore a lot of the recommendations i have but most of them are geared towards the specific person. the above is not so much a recommendation as an explanation of how screwy it can get when it come from this direction. for instance an ex and i were at a music store and i handed her an andi sex gang cd to listen to because i thought she would like it. and she did. personally i have yet to find anything they did worth any of my time. it just fit with in the realms of her taste and such so it was a serious recommendation. in the end i bought her two of the three albums they had for her. the third had too much damage.
when i find people who can pull off recommendations of this quality i like to keep them handy (right here in my pocket) if only for that. no thats not the only thing worth being friends for but its a big plus. a lot of the time when i get into a discussions about music i am taking notes. some time mentally sometimes on paper. all depends on the source.
i could make a hundred recommendations on excellent albums and songs and i might but it kills me when these magazines do these collections of top 50 or a hundred albums that should be popping up right about now. true they are frequently catering to the market they serve but unless they cover a large variety of styles or a list of the top selling albums and are based stricktly on numbers then they are bunk. a lot of them will have the beatles on the somewhere. usually sgt peppers is on there somewhere but it you take the time you will find that let it be is really a much better album with more signal to noise.
another thing this list and a lot of people dont consider is greatest hits albums. this can be a good and a bad thing. sure it gives you either there top selling or most request songs but there is a flaw with so many. the more recent beatles products are a perfect example where the songs you know and love are remastered or even worse for the concept is when new songs are added because they think it will or should be a hit. the red and blue set are a better package but they too are defective.
the problems with greatest hits albums are many. the main one being that it is frequently the band or more often than not a producer selecting the songs they like best.(cracker garage d'Or) if the band does it fine (cracker -redux). if anyone else does it that too is bunk. the worse problem if that they pull songs out of context. sometimes it doesnt matter. sometimes it does. it really doesnt work when you have a brand new song surrounded by songs off the bands first album. another issue is where it is decided not to include certian songs because they are covers. (just imagine a marilyn manson greatest hits album without covers. or me first and the gimme gimmes for that matter). sometimes the best thing a band or artist did belongs to someone else and in some cases they did it better (johnny cashs cover of hurt or soft cells cover of tainted love are good examples of doing it better than the original).
i realize that these are good for exposing people unfamiliar with the band. in a lot of cases it cut the crap down to a minimum but it might not be the best thing for long term listening (eagles greatest hits vol 2 is a proven exception to this). in a lot of cases they feel like nothing more than contractual obligations or grasps for more money (they might be giants - then and now). live albums are even worse. they always feel like greatest hits albums with much lower production values. this is primarily true for rock bands. the vocals are almost always too quite. jazz and blues live albums tend to be an odd sort of exception to this as they generally sound better when recorded live (holly cole - it happened one night).
what a tangled web it is to find good music. this is part of the reason that you should listen to your friends. if their tastes are close to yours there is a better chance that you will find some you like. by that same token dont be afraid of these automated things that sites like amazon use. the automated systems generally use sales of albums and artists where the same people have made like purchases or searches or ratings. not everything will be worth it but if you find one or a few then it is worth looking into. the part i like about the amazon one is that it seems that there is very little to no sponsered results. true it has you taking broad recommendations from computers but welcome to the modern age.
the automated systems have a fuction but well thought out recommendations of good music can not be beat. i cant even count the number of time i have heard a good song and then found that everything else by the band or artist is complete crap. in those cases its best just to get the one song and walk away happy. but if you find a really good album or song please share it with those you know and love. just keep in mind that because you love it doesnt mean its actually good music. the things like that should be saved for the choir. or torchering people via karaoke.
man i really went off track here. thats what i get for writing it in parts. if you are not used to that by now you never will be. and if you want to make recommendation please do so. even if you think i already know it i am interested to know what you consider to be really good songs or albums. the ones you love as well as the ones you think are just really good. the ones that never got the attention they truly deserve are even better.
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*i have a theory that the redhead is hard of hearing if not completely deaf. if anyone can verify this fact please let me know. i mean yeah we all know she is dumb (unfortunately i dont mean mute) as are the rest of them but if this is true it really explains a lot. i am sure i am completely wrong though
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answers that question...
Hanson Brothers
10DEC2008
The Conservatory
Oklahoma City, OK
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omf"b" canadas amazing hanson brothers are playing at the conservatory tonight. maybe i will actually make it this go round. i have missed seeing them several times before. just like most of the really good bands i had a chance to see. well see. this is one i should kill someone to make it too. and i did do something today off my list that is big enough to payback for.
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winter winners
its been a while
so its gonna be a while
going that extra mile
with a slow stupid smile
walking and waiting
side by side
exploring and deploring
tonight to bide
lets do it again
one more time
lets do it again
one more time
lets do it again
one more time
its been a while
so its gonna be a while
going that extra mile
with a slow stupid smile
walking and waiting
side by side
exploring and deploring
tonight to bide
lets do it again
one more time
lets do it again
one more time
lets do it again
one more time
sitting through movies
counting every frame
sitting through moves
side stepping the game
no more word to lie
or desires to dispise
watching the sunrise
refracted in you eyes
lets do it again
one more time
lets
goodnight
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i am not 100 percent happy with the third verse and i am not sure all of the connections and couter actions are clear enough. some day i am going to sit someone down for a nice long talk about publishing companies and such. maybe i need to add that to my list.
...with you glock out
raised on the streets
piqued by the savage taste
the man with the money
just another one to waste
shudder with excitement
taking action in haste
little man hungry for action
as hes grasping at the locks
minding the monies
while watching the clock
one in the chamber
and ready to rock
walking the streets
avoiding the probing eyes
passing the buck
for a bind that ties
shudder with excitement
tasting those leather thighs
little man hungry for action
as hes grasping at the locks
minding the monies
while watching the clock
one in the chamber
and ready to rock
getting off the streets
to make a special deal
no one gets hurt
in a place where no one squeals
he shot his load
but he didnt get to se the heels
and the truth came out
and everything got cut
short
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attempt one with out pictures
we bought theses garment bags that are perfect for rhps costuming and i need some "vintage" help with them. i have searched them up and down trying to find a maker and to no luck. there are two different types so i am assuming two different makers. both kinds are non-folding brightly colored thick vinyl types.
one type zips down the side while the other zips down the middle. one type has the shoe pouches on the inside while the other has outside zipper pockets.
i managed to find four of these within a two week period for a total of less than $10. now i cant even find information about them. the color i found were red blue green and brown. i am guessing sixties or seventies by style and materials but really cant say since i cant find marks. these things are great and i need to find more but i need to know what i am looking for. so any help is appreciated.
i am also trying to figure out what they style is on the amelia earhart bag i have is. it is a rigid cloth type that zip across the top with ends that fold down like a milk carton. may have been sold as a saddle bag but that just really doesnt seem right to me. and this is one of those near unsearchable topics. too many bunk results due to disappearance.
also while trying to figure this out i came across my samsonite train case on ebay. this is one i have been toting around for years and years for storing toiletries. odd how well the thing works for doing just that. i picked this up at a yard sale or thrift store c1989. i always new it was missing the key. most of my samsonites lost the keys before i ever got a chance to. now i find out that this whole time i have been missing the tray and mirror as well. bastids. i still love it and if i really want tray and mirror i swap out one of my kaboodles. why bie tubs when samsonite can be thrift srored cheaper and lasts a hundred times longer. and will have resale value when i choose to ditch them. or they get ditched when i snuff it.
we also need to hunt some hat cases down but that is going to be a pain and a half. because the columbia hat is tall and the janet hat is so freakin huge that it hurts. i want to get ones that will truely protect so the cardboard type are so out. the trick is too keep them from getting damaged until i get the cases.
oh and i need to get another skatebox or two for rubber stamps and films. i just dont want to get one with the skates in it.
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get back its way early
for a step back here is part of the all interview from as is 25. ill get to the rest of it some day but i would rather do it from the originals. sorry about the screwy scan but i am not pulling the staples out of this mess. picture links to printable size. and since some of you are still around here i would like to take a moment to thank all of you that were so much help with the zine. sometimes i say i in reference to that but it was all of us working on it in one way or another. this many years later you people still kick ass. yeah even that one guy. i really cant express how much it means to me that so many of you are still in my life to one degree or another.
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i have this edgar cayce paper back that got messed up and i keep thinking that i will have a dream and tell somewhere else where i can find another cheap copy in such good condition as that one was. it really was an odd thing. i dropped it and it hit the floor right on the spine and just split down the middle. i am sure the spine was already weaken from previous reads (none by me - thats why i was grabbing it in the first place) but this implies extended improper storage that would mean the whole thing is more brittle than thought. just like the psyche.
anyone have a good idea on how to convert a brownie camera to digital without removing the lens etc and with as little modification as possible? i am going to have to do some serious playing to figure this one out. i think in the end i will have to pull the lens etc but use the internals from one of the cheap digitals that does not have the view screen. and cut a whole for the usb plug to limit the chance of shock and damage to unprotected parts. no worries because these are a dime a dozen and i have a box of them so i have room to work. then after i get done i will convert my old vivitar to a huge pile of crap. oh wait vivitar did that in manufacture.
someday i will get a roll top desk so i can do the laptop conversion on that. not soon but hopefully before the market pops back on them.
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Wal-Mart worker dies after shoppers knock him down
By COLLEEN LONG, Associated Press Writer
NEW YORK – A worker died after being trampled by a throng of unruly shoppers when a suburban Wal-Mart opened for the holiday sales rush Friday, authorities said.
At least three other people were injured.
Wal-Mart Stores Inc., in Bentonville, Ark., would not confirm the reports of a stampede but said a "medical emergency" had caused the company to close the store, which is in Valley Stream on Long Island.
Nassau County police said the 34-year-old worker was taken to a hospital where he was pronounced dead at about 6 a.m., an hour after the store opened. The cause of death was not immediately known.
A police statement said shortly after 5 a.m., a throng of shoppers "physically broke down the doors, knocking (the worker) to the ground." Police also said a 28-year-old pregnant woman was taken to a hospital for observation and three other shoppers suffered minor injuries and were also taken to hospitals.
The dead worker's name was not released.
"Local authorities are looking into the situation," said Wal-Mart representative Dan Fogleman. But he said it would be "inappropriate for me to share any additional information" until authorities investigate further.
Shoppers around the country lined up early outside stores in the annual bargain hunting ritual known as Black Friday. Many stores open early and stay open late. The Valley Stream Wal-Mart usually opens at 9 a.m.
This might actually turn out to be a good thing. Yes it is sad that someone died but if that is what it takes to make things change for the safety of all then it will not be a pointless death. For years companies have done nothing but encourage this sort of behaviour. They frequently limit supplies of high demand below cost items to a point that you have to run to what you want to even have a chance of getting it. At the same time most of the stores have little or no security or safety personal to act as crowd control just so they can get people into the store. They encourage these purposely sleep deprived to act in a group mentality and not consider the physical or financial health of theirselves or others. All that matters is they spend every single cent that they can. Not just what they can afford to.
One of the best things that happened with this is that it made the news before the three headed monster that is Wal-Mart could squash or spin it. Given the chance we all know they would have. The worst part is that it happened in New York. Too many people in this country expect anyone from New York, city or state, to be rude and violent. It has been my personal experience that as a rule this is quite opposite of the truth. My travels have shown more violence and rudeness in smaller towns in the middle part of the country. Which is where this should have happened if it was going to. Though Wal-Mart might have been better able to control the release of information in a location like that. For a few days at least. Long enough to come up with a good spin that makes it the fault of the employee or the crowd. Anyone but the company.
It is because of situations like this they do a lottery type of deal on most major concert tickets and also why most facilities dont offer general admission seating. It was the same story. People died and companies got sued for lack of concern for consumer saftey. Seems that some one forgot to mention all of this to the retail giants. Hopefully they get the message soon enough to prevent more deaths.
as an aside because a lot of people seem not to know it is called black friday because the high level of sales are suppose to bring the companies out of the red and into the black financially. just so you know that yes it really is all about the almight dollar. why do you think they start putting the xmess crap out early and earlier? maybe i should start making a list of ways to avoid black friday crowds and still get a good deal. they i could charge people and have them line up and i get to beat the crap out of them so they get the full experience.
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ok so i was digging for some stuff in my storage space and i found something kinda cool. but not hear as cool as it should have been. it had the typical toons reviews poetry and random crap but it also had interviews with all and chemical people. too bad it was the house copy and not the originals that i have been searching for. but there were originals for sever other issues (oh believe me i have more issue than you might think) and numerous one offs. small box for as much of my life went into it. pretty much everything in that box will get added to the project hell pile.
almost as funny as digging through stuff in the study and finding a simulated diamond (read: fake) and a natural garnet bouncing about. its like finding treasue the lazy way. oh wait that is finding treasure. i am happy that i kept them in their baggies until moved to their real home. it is a small collection that i am working on pieceing together that will probably never be complete. you see i decided it will not be complete until i get ahold of a cut bixbite/red beryl. i really like the color and look of that. but i dont think i could be a bigger asshole to myself since the way things stand it is one of the more rare stones. much much more rare than diamonds. to quote beavis dammit dammit son of a biiiiiiiiiiitch.
somewhere amidst that i came back across a screeching weasel moshing cow t-shirt that have been hauling around for [mumble] years. its not mine and i keep meaning to return it to its righful owner. not that it would fit. it is suppose to be a large or better but it is really a medium. frankly i think at this point i should work on getting rid of it one way or another. but the problem is that i have had this since i got divorced the first time. yeah that many years. hmmm i guess i can be a bigger asshole.
yes i still have at least one box to ship off. and omf"b" its headed east. but worse...its big. it will be just like 10mess in...december. aw crap. and its missing goods.
do you people know how freaking hard it is to find a cheap barbie type doll with out feet designed for heels? how the hell am i suppose to build mrs helix with that sexist crap. she does not wear heels. there was a time when all of this was almost easy. but now that i have better ideas and tools and skills i cant find what i need to make it live. not to mention i still have to learn to use a sewing machine.
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Twitter, Flickr, Facebook Make Blogs Look So 2004
By Paul Boutin
Thinking about launching your own blog? Here's some friendly advice: Don't. And if you've already got one, pull the plug. [i dont think i would call that friendly advice.]
Writing a weblog today isn't the bright idea it was four years ago. [it wasnt a bright idea four years ago. by that point it was already old hat. thats just when the terma started getting bounced around be mainstream media outlets] </font> The blogosphere [use that word ever again and i take away your ipood], once a freshwater oasis of folksy self-expression and clever thought [and still is if you dont mind looking a little and/or have a nice feed reader], has been flooded by a tsunami of paid bilge [there is the real problem now skip the rest of the article]. Cut-rate journalists and underground marketing campaigns now drown out the authentic voices of amateur wordsmiths [because those are the new big thing and there time has passed its peak.]. It's almost impossible to get noticed, except by hecklers [not everyone does it to get noticed and not everyone deserves to get noticed]. And why bother? The time it takes to craft sharp, witty blog prose [it takes a hundred times more skill than time and those with the skill become consumed with making the time] is better spent expressing yourself on Flickr, Facebook, or Twitter [posting bad pictures, worse polls, adds for your band and tiny sentences for the most part does not contitute expressing your self].
If you quit now, you're in good company [if you ignore the hype you are in better company]. Notorious chatterbox [chatter is adds nothing. forced ideas and concepts dont cut it] Jason Calacanis made millions from his Weblogs network [because it is all about the money?]. But he flat-out retired his own blog in July. "Blogging is simply too big, too impersonal, and lacks the intimacy that drew me to it," he wrote in his final post [it is what you make it notwhat makes you.].
Impersonal is correct [so is paid advertisement and corporate sponsered]: Scroll down Technorati's list of the top 100 blogs [you go ahead and do that i havent done it before so it would seem that i have no reason to do it now] and you'll find personal sites have been shoved aside by professional ones [because apples sell better than oranges. and are prettier. and taste better.] . Most are essentially [there is no essentially about it.] that is what they are and like all bad magazines they are slowly sinking as they are running ashore] online magazines: The Huffington Post. Engadget. TreeHugger. A stand-alone commentator can't keep up with a team of pro writers cranking out up to 30 posts a day [never mind the fact that most readers dont want to read that many crap posts at one time just to get to the one or two that may really interest them. they would rather connect with real people instead of writing machines].
When blogging was young [because you know everything on the internet is just so very old], enthusiasts rode high [and a lot of them are still doing the same things because that is what they enjoy doing], with posts quickly skyrocketing to the top of Google's search results for any given topic [except of course for the fact that google was an unknown at the point that things got rolling], fueled by generous links from fellow bloggers [and then google changed there search rules and made a smarter engine]. In 2002 [sorry but that is not even close to when blogging began possibly when the term came into popular misuse] , a search for "Mark" ranked Web developer Mark Pilgrim above author Mark Twain [why didnt you follow the link for the mark 60 and sink this bitch before it ever got out of the dock?]. That phenomenon was part of what made blogging so exciting [that was a fluke that really didnt last that long. what made it exciting was having a place to express yourself and possibly connect with similar thinkers the world over]. No more. Today, a search for, say, Barack Obama's latest speech [Barack Obama's latest speech - i said it are you happy now?] will deliver a Wikipedia page, a Fox News article, [as a serious research tool those are getting closer to where you would want to go to get the information you are looking for] and a few entries from professionally run sites like Politico.com. The odds of your [or anybodys not really all that] clever entry appearing high on the list? [the chances that anyone gives a crap about you commments on the speech or anything else] Basically zero.
That said, your blog will still draw the Net's lowest form of life: [the hack with that doesnt consider all of the facts when writing bad articles?] The insult commenter [yep the hack]. Pour your heart out in a post [too bad most people dont], and some anonymous troll named [please explain how they can be anonymous and named at the same point. i have to hear this one] r0rschach or foohack is sure to scribble beneath it, "Lame. Why don't you just suck McCain's ass." [and you are so starved for any attention that you cant bring yourself to just delete it and are too well paid by his people to reconsider what you actually wrote] That's why Calacanis has retreated to a private mailing list [i really doubt that was the real reason]. He can talk to his fans directly, without having to suffer idiotic retorts from anonymous Jason-haters [oh i get it, he can preach to the converted and ban anyone that disagrees with him and thinks his ideas are bunk].
Further, text-based Web sites aren't where the buzz is anymore [yet they are still there unlike any other buzz. because the buzz always wears off and all you have left is suicide monday]. The reason blogs took off is that they made publishing easy for non-techies [too easy in some cases. never mind the fact that some people are voyuer pervs that want to know every aspect of some people lives. or that people were doing this sort of thing long before the internet came about] . Part of that simplicity was a lack of support for pictures, audio, and videoclips [because the shinny things help so much in expressing complicated ideas and concepts]. At the time, multimedia content was too hard to upload [now its too easy but you still have to figure out how to link to it], too unlikely to play back [still is], and too hungry for bandwidth [still is and will be until someone figure out a way to make smaller video files that actually stream the way they are suppose too but are not the size of a postage stamp].
Social multimedia [with tos that make it a waste of time and effort to try use them for anything useful or creative] sites like YouTube, Flickr, and Facebook have since made publishing pics and video as easy as typing text [easier actually since typing requires an active train of thought]. Easier, if you consider the time most bloggers spend fretting over their words [yes i do but that is only part of what it takes. but then how many professional photographers fret over there images the way writers fret over there words]. [the following concerns paid advertisement - please ignore] Take a clue from Robert Scoble, who made his name as Microsoft's "technical evangelist" blogger from 2003 to 2006. Today, he focuses on posting videos and Twitter [twatter] updates. "I keep my blog mostly for long-form writing," [but notice he did not say that he had quit doing it or that it was a dead concept] he says.
Twitter — which limits each text-only [wait didnt you just say text based sites werent the buz anymore? yes you did] post to 140 characters ["i have to keep my selfrespect ill never be a star"] — is to 2008 what the blogosphere [boot to the head and no more ipood] was to 2004 [overhyped and annoying as all hell to try to use?]. You'll find Scoble, Calacanis, and most of their buddies from the golden age there [because they really dont have time time or ideas left in them to create real posts]. They claim it's because Twitter operates even faster than the blogosphere [boot to the head and no crackberry]. And Twitter posts can be searched instantly, without waiting for Google to index them [because there is just so much there that is worth search for. kind of like most of the myspace bullitins. vote for me, buy this, we are playing a show tonight half way around the world come see us.].
As a writer [though not a very good one], though, I'm onto the system's real appeal: [free porn] brevity. Bloggers today are expected to write clever, insightful, witty prose [but so few of them ever have and ever will but still they keep trying. and some of them are so very trying] to compete with Huffington and The New York Times [there are those apples and orages again]. Twitter's character limit puts everyone back on equal footing [with crippled access to limited ideas. all bloggers are created equal just some more than others]. It lets amateurs quit agonizing over their writing and cut to the chase [too bad most of them get distracted by chasing their own tails]. @WiredReader: Kill yr blog. 2004 over. Google [because its the only search engine out there. long live hotbot.] won't find you. Too much cruft from HuffPo, NYT. Commenters are tards [like those that write gossip columns?]. C u on Facebook [facebook and most of the others mentioned are more disservice than service] ?
Paul Boutin {paul@valleywag.com) is a correspondent for the Silicon Valley gossip site Valleywag [oh sorry i didnt realize you werent a real journalist].
they published this instead of one that talks about the slow death of aol? aol has closed aol pictures which never should have existed in the first place. then closed home town thus killing thousands of web pages in one striking pass. by doing so they have killed one of the most positive things the service had left to offer. they have also cut back on the number of free installation cds, the number of service employees, and who know what else. if they kill or lock down aim they will be gone in monhts. if they dont do some serious restructuring they will be liquidated in a matter of two years at the most. but thats just a guess. but it would have been a much more informative piece.
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[20 Nov 2008|10:33am] |
so there was an article in one of the recent issues of wired announcing the death of blogging due to lack of readers to no corporate blogs and the popularity of twatter and apps like. first off most blogs dont compete with corporate blogs because they are not the same thing. one is mostly people discussing the latest and lamest in whatever field they work in while the other is a deeper look into peoples souls and lives. twatter on the other hand is not even related. its like a commercial for real posts. notes that may or may not be expanded on at a later point. i really need to find the article and and rip it apart line by line.
ack! someone stop me already. i am sitting here playing on ebay looking for gas masks. because yeah thats what i really need. what i should do is find the 3, 4, 5 i have and hang them on the wall amidst pandys drama mask collection. then maybe i will hunt down new cans for them. it a paranoia thing not a fetish thing.
why do people think they are kinky or whatever because they have a pair of faux fur lined handcuffs? do they really think those crappy things make them weird or cool? the cheap ass things are nothing more than annoying. that type of person wouldnt know a kink from a case of whip cream.
i need to make a buttons - ask me about my H0 track an i love my H0. i need to get a button press. that would make my life easier. and i need to get some of the greating cards ran if i can find a company that prints like i like for a price i like. that doesnt get all pissy about offensive content.
speaking of pissy and content i found the originals of the first 10 or 12 issues of as is. omf"b" they suck so bad. part of me thinks i should burn them. part of me thinks i should donate them to that library. part of me thinks i should no a final run as a set. part of me thinks i should scan them all in so you can all laugh at them. part of me thinks i should tape the box shut and never ever let them see the liht of day again. part of me thinks i am going to pieces. theses are all the ones that ran in half size. the really really shitty ones. but they do have interviews - screeching weasel, heavy mental, the flaming lips.
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so far this month i have broken or other wise ruined
2 hammers (fixable and fuckitable)
2 screw driver (fuckitable and not mine(!))
a hole saw (fixable)
plus my jigsaw is getting all screwy and needs to be pulled apart and serviced. a stuck on switch is never a good thing. one of the hammers was a day old dollar tree hammer. yes they are cheaply made but this has to be a record for me. one of the screwdiver did not break at the point it should have. i got all pissed of and threw it down (nice anger management buddy) and pieces went everywhere. seems i had forgotten that this one held parts in the handle so when i threw it the cap flew off and metal bits flew about. but after picking up every thing it was all present and undamaged. then the next day (today) i stripped the thing put screws into a 1" hinge. never should have happened that way.
nothing like pushing weak tools to their breaking points. mabe if i push hard enough i will go past my breaking point.
next step it tag projectors for maintenance. it will be a nice winter project sice the projectors run hotter than an overclocked xt. so far two need belts and one of those may need a bulb. and "bob" knows they all need cleaned loved and lubed. then i have to go get the pair i saw last weekend. because they are just oh so pretty. maybe i will even do a head count make a nice little display rack for most of them. the newer 16mm can keep its fat ass on the ground. its a just because anyway. because it was cheap when i bought it. because i didnt have a 16mm at the time. because i couldnt think of enough reasons not to get it. but you give me a choice between that one and the 1930s kodak and i am so going with the kodak...after it gets a good belt.
those two pretty blue keystones actually got me in the mood to watch a couple of recent buys. one was 5 minutes of trees filmed from a boat or a river side drive. the other was a christmas 1952. and i proved how sad i was. the one kid opens a tinker toy set and i start going off about taking them away form him. do you know wha the value is of a mint 1952 tinker toy set?! then later in it the two boys open a lionel train set and i went through the whole bit again. but seriously the family had to have a little money to be able to afford the camera and film, editing services, and toys like that. not really cheap things at any time. the really funny part was the use of the tv (off station) to light up the woman playing piano. actually gave it a nice mood. it was such a happy nc17mas that it was almost sickening. and there was even snow on the ground.
this all relates because i learn to use the tools to maintain the toys. if i stay in practice its handy information when i need it. like wiring up that sloppy bitch that is my stereo. or being able to build those boxes that meet my needed specs for record storage. like learning to use a computer just so i can work on databasing my music but at this point i think i will take a couple of shortcuts. ( like this )
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ok the previous mess started me thinking that i need to draw out the map for my stereo so that i can start counts and all that fun stuff. and yes it a mess too.
the vhs vcr may get replaced with a combo deck
the turntables need to be replaced by 1200s at some point but until then they need service after they flipped off the dolly on to the marble floor when moving out of the fenz
the 8 track player needs serviced with a good cleaning and a new belt put in.
the records are there for stability and there is a good chance that one of the will get replaced with the sub wolfer from the system my older sister gave me.
the mixers need to be replaced with one that covers all channels without splitting.
it is also possible that a lap top (thank you lady) might be rigged up for playing digital content off portable drive plus serving database purposes
current counts show a need for 4 surge protectors. but that is prior to lighting being installed.
i need to check breakers and plugs prior to first run but should probably just run a fresh set.
man it still hurts
there is a possibility that the disc changer will go with the 78 turntable in a separate room and made usable by normal people. see? parents can be good for something. since both of those items came from that direction.
then i get to hunt for the perfect cabinet system. ok i found one but the time wasnt right for getting it. but for now they are easy to come by. after that i will be hunting for a rockola. but thats a load of money and electronics that i am no where near ready to touch.
EDIT: as mentioned in comments i forgot to diagram the mics in. one per mixer. i also forgot the big ass do not touch sign(s). even thou i have only once had some one do that with out training because most smart people assume correctly that doing so will lead to massive pain overloads.
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i finally started working on prepping my records for moving them out of storage. in the past fifteen years they have spent more time in storage than not and dammit they need to be free. the main part of prepping the is making suitable containers. for years i have relied on store bought mas produced containers. doesnt work any more. never really worked. so i have started making boxes that are sturdy enough and a good size for moving. yes still heavy as all hell but half that weight is container. then once i get them home i can spend a couple of weeks getting them in proper order. some of them maintained some kind of order but one of the sections i flipped through went all (jp)/all(sme)/halfler trio/decandent dub team. aw crap thats hella messy (yes. like your mother but maybe even worse). and since i have really been out of touch with them for so long too many questions came up
why do i have 2 copies of the reflex 12"?
why do i have two promo copies of a lucious jackson record?
why does the peace comp have a staple in it?
why do i have a queen is dead gatefold and insert but not record with it?*
and were they all gatefolds?
where the hell did this sessions gotta/grand theme come from?
when did i get bonus fat?
when did i get a cure interview picture disc?
why do i have revolver without a cover?
how the hell am i suppose to organize all of these plain white (or black) jackets?
why do i have a terrance trent darby record?
where did i get the sylvie and babs record and more so did i listen to it more than once never?
who is griffin?
where the holy fucking hell am i going to get more bags in this day and age?
and how many am i going to have to get?
when/where did i get the mudhoney/sonic youth split 12" when the only time i ever recall seeing this one it was in the home of oyster pubs?
why the fuck do i have like 10 moby 12" singles/eps?
why does ten fold hate (so sexist as well) not have bonus items in it?
this is my world. and the shit that really hurts is that is just from 2 boxes worth. 6 more to go but i have to get more wood. and for now that is a side project. but i know a few of you understand just how fucking bad this shit hurts me for it to be in this kind of state. and the cds and tape are worse. the stuff needs a home. a full home with no windows a good alarm system and a nice pair of headphones. for the sake of humor if any of you have answers to any of the above questions please feel free to help out. and why do you have one is not an answer. if none of the questions makes any sense then you obviously have much inferior tastes in music. lmfao. i assume everybody knows i have a near complete debbie gibson collection and in general have pretty horrible taste in music. but yeah these are some of the questions that are eating at me. i tell ya its enough to drive a person... enough to drive a person... enough to drive a person... enough to drive a person... ::twitch::
on the good side though i found one of the camper van chadbourne items. so thats a step in the right direction. even better was getting records out of a box i put my knee through x number of ears ago.
*this has happened before where something got thrown into the wrong sleeve. happens more often with cds. but i dont think that happened here since the is a 10" and some other random crap tucked inside.
what are you doing over there? or hereish?
i saw the coolest thing at at the thrift store today. a hair dryer chair! ok yes i still have the one from the basement of club rommex but this one was padded. and didnt need to be rewired. and i dont think it had a busted ass coin slot either. not to metion that it looks like it weighs about 100 ponds less tthan the one i have. 100 pound is not an exaggeration. i would almost trde the one i have for this other one. but feh i can rewire it and some day get the coin slot fixed/unfixed. and the new one just wouldnt have the history. but they would look nice next to each other.
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[04 Nov 2008|12:07am] |
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ok so i am seriously thinking i am going to austin for funfunfunfest for a host of reasons but am debating it because of sleep factors. if i can get a (shit) hotel for like $30 then it wont be an issue. sleepin at a reststop in an option. just not one i am looking forward to. but eh well see. but damn i still have riot fest pictures to sort and run with. hopefully at this one the lighting wont suck as bad for picture taking. lmfao.
on the way back i might stop in dallas and/or gainsville to do xmess shopping.
before this happens though i have to go vote at 7am the drive to muskogee and sit with my grandmother as family rep for gal bladder surgery and whatever else they come with. and while i am there i have to throw my dads computer out the window fix my dads computer. so if all that goes well then i will make it. if not i will be missing all of this. [the bolded ones are want to see the yellow are remember having seen.]
stage 1
the national (8:40 pm - 9:40 pm)
atmosphere (7:35 pm - 8:35 pm)
deerhoof (6:30 pm - 7:30 pm)
rival schools (5:40 pm - 6:25 pm)
…and you will know us by the trail of dead (4:50 pm - 5:35 pm)
black heart procession (4:00 pm - 4:45 pm)
bishop allen (3:20 pm - 3:55 pm)
centro-matic (2:45 pm - 3:15 pm)
parts and labor (2:10 pm - 2:40 pm)
colourmusic (1:35 pm - 2:05 pm)
experimental dental school (1:00 pm - 1:30 pm)
the paul green school of rock (12:25 pm - 12:55 pm)
stage 2
neil hamburger (8:45 pm - 9:45 pm)
tim fite (7:45 pm - 8:30 pm)
magnetic morning (6:45 pm - 7:30 pm)
golden arm trio (4:35 pm - 5:15 pm)
pepi ginsberg (3:40 pm - 4:20 pm)
walter schreifels (3:00 pm - 3:30 pm)
el paso hot button (2:20 pm - 2:50 pm)*
frank smith (1:35 pm - 2:05 pm)
grampall jookabox (1:00 pm - 1:30 pm)
stage 3
the dead milkmen (8:45 pm - 9:45 pm)
all (7:50 pm - 8:40 pm)
integrity (7:00 pm - 7:45 pm)
the adolescents (6:10 pm - 6:55 pm)
municipal waste (5:20 pm - 6:05 pm)
killdozer (4:30 pm - 5:15 pm)
swingin utters (3:40 pm - 4:25 pm)
young widows (3:05 pm - 3:35 pm)
krumbums (2:30 pm - 3:00 pm)
broken gold (1:55 pm - 2:25 pm)
mammoth grinder (1:20 pm - 1:50 pm)
yuppie pricks (12:45 pm - 1:15 pm)
stage 4
z-trip (8:10 pm - 9:40 pm)
dan deacon (7:00 pm - 8:00 pm)
brownout! (6:00 pm - 6:45 pm)
yacht (5:00 pm - 5:45 pm)
the octopus project (4:00 pm - 4:45 pm)
hawnay troof (3:00 pm - 3:45 pm)
dengue fever (2:00 pm - 2:45 pm)
terp 2 it (1:30 pm - 1:55 pm)
richard henry (12:30 pm - 1:25 pm)
*local act that completely kicks ass live. one man with more rock than most bands.
somebody go buy this and i will love you forever. and get rid of something at the same time.
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| magics just not practical i think you think too much |
[30 Oct 2008|10:47am] |
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doorways spiritual retreat
so i go an email about this being restarted. not that i have ever been but it looks like it might be interesting. my problem is that too many of this sort of people are grade a flakes. not all of them but a very unbalanced amount of them. with that one being a retreat i doubt i will attend but maybe some of you might know for good or bad about some of the people involved with that or these o.p.e.r.a. & oklahoma city spirit fair. or maybe not.
one of the things that interests me about this is card reading. every once in a while i will get a card reading just for laughs. most of the time its pure crap and you can tell that the person is badly self trained and not connected to the deck. they are reading each card by direction rather then reading the layout as a whole. then they throw cold reading on top of it. con jobs of the lowest level. they get away with it because people want to believe. and are generally stupid. however. however the one really good reading i ever got was at a point that doesnt look so good on paper. at a missed club amidst heavy drinking. considering the close nature of regulars it would seem that this would lead to inside information. problem with that is that i am an outsider in situations like that and thus an unkown factor. it was vague and specific at the same time. because she did it right. didnt ask questions and read the layout and the client.
i am not what you call a believer in any of this type of thing but its open for possibilities. i dont believe in a lot of things but that doesnt mean it cant be true. most of the time i refer to it as complete crap because of the number of people who claim it but obviosly have no idea what they are talking about. they just want to be weird or cool or whatever. its funny the number of times i have had people look at me or my work and say 'this person is going somewhere.' yeah hell. but then i would have to believe in that for that to happen. but. and that is the part that amuses me every time someone says that there is always a big but when talking about me. the thing is that a lot of it is just reading people in ways that most people ignore. small words and facts and illusions of facts in small words. how and why a person carries themselves. do they lead follow wander wonder rock the boat or try to sink it. or just sit there laughing about things without attemps to change anything. or try to come up with answers that dont really have a question.
most people cant see it in other people because they cant even see it in their own selves. because confronting things like that means confronting a lot of things. too many unknowns on a journey without a map of even a path. this is the sound of one hand clapping you on the back of the head. feh. what the hell do i know? ok i know that this is why i stopped going to church or listening to most people that go on a regular basis. the problem is they dont even ask the wrong questions because they dont question.
for the record...no i dont think i am going anywhere because that takes a plan. and someone once accused me of never doing anything with more than 10 seconds notice. she probably right but at least i do sometimes do some things. ok ok so yes it usually turns to crap is a matter of minutes. one bad idea after another.
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this star wars thing that is on really makes me wonder what a good conversation between c3-p0 and marvin the martian would be like. and if the were drinking?
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[27 Oct 2008|01:00am] |
a call for inactivity
post a link to your cause(s) of choice prior to the 2008 elections (only days away) and show that you care about something. then ask your friends to do the same. it might not make a difference but then it might. some way some how it may show someone where some of their money is needed. this is not meant as a way to hassle for donations just a calm way of saying 'this matters to me.' in the end your posting of a link is a benifit to your cause of choice by drawing attention to it. do this as a favor to yourself and the things you care about. so think about what matters to you and post away and pass along. and thank you.
my cause of choice is:
http://www.amnesty.org/
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[26 Oct 2008|07:02am] |
really no
ill finish it when i find my notes
this close to complete failure
signals fading
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[20 Oct 2008|06:57pm] |
i had to do it because i have been making the joke to myself and now you too can share in the misery of a stuck bad joke.
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[18 Oct 2008|09:44am] |
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vile cherubs run down...
mmmkay i mentioned getting the vile cherubs cd some time ago. well in the posts here and here they mention the scarcity of said cd while discussing the new version. both cds have the same title and the pictures you see of the no sweats cd are not the white heap realease by the same name. still need to get that newer one so that i might have a complete set. but if you look here and want to hear the even harder to find album (post-humorous relief) that was a split release with discord records it is available as a full download. but i would suggest you hurry since supplies are probably limited like everything else about this band.
now go ahead and ask me what happened last weekend. i fucking dare you. ill even post the pictures. all 400 of them. ummmm no.
yeah i know you know something about it. and if i am not mistaken that was the other mrs next to you. correct?
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| all alone aint much fun so youre looking for the thrill |
[07 Oct 2008|02:48am] |
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fucking nightboat |
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to show our solidarity as americans, let's all get together and support for the candidate of our choice. yes, it's high time that we come together, democrats and republicans alike:
if you support the policies and character of senator obama, please drive with your headlights on during the day.
if you support john mccain, please drive with your headlights off at night.
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gerry and ken, two elderly friends, met in the park every day to feed the pigeons, watch the possums and discuss world problems. one day ken didn't show up. gerry didn't think much about it and figured maybe he had a cold or something. but after ken hadn't shown up for a week or so, gerry really got worried. however, since the only time they ever got together was at the park, gerry didn't know where ken lived, so he was unable to find out what had happened to him.
a month passed, and gerry figured he had seen the last of ken, but one day, gerry approached the park and -- lo and behold! -- there sat ken!
gerry was very excited and happy to see him and told him so, then he said, 'for crying out loud ken, what in the world happened to you?'
ken replied, 'i have been in jail.'
'jail?' cried gerry. 'what in the world for?'
'well,' ken said, 'you know jenny, that cute little blonde waitress at the coffee shop where i sometimes go?'
'yeah,' said gerry, 'i remember her. what about her?'
'well, one day she filed rape charges against me; and, at 89 years of age, i was so proud that when i got into court, i pleaded 'guilty' and the judge gave me 30 days!'
'you only got 30 days for rape?'
'nah... for perjury.'
[this one was sent by my grandmother. O_o]
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| i like birds bees i like people i like funny things that make me happy and gleeful |
[02 Oct 2008|07:34am] |
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on a side note we are doing three rhps shows this season one at trick con treat and two at iao. problem is that none of them have enough seating. halloween shows in small venues. just one of many defects. i backed out of doing brad because of several reasons and will instead do dr scott. never mind the fact that in the middle of all of this i have to go to chicago for what looks to be a kick ass show. then after all that is over i start ebaying my life away.
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